first is the worst

this is a new thing for me. i've never had a blog before. i'm not sure that it will work out for me either- this blog and i already aren't getting along. see, i have this thing where i like things to be uniform. already i've been faced with the decision as to whether or not i'm going to write with proper grammatical mechanics or not. no big deal, i know.... but (yes,there is a but) i kind of like the way things are when they're written well. my problem is that i'm not a big fan of seeing errors when i write things- a very imperfect perfectionist. i guess my thought process in choosing not to type this like an educated person was this: if i begin with bad mechanics then i don't have to feel badly when i see errors in my writing. this is sad- it kind of goes along with the concept of setting low standards so i won't have to worry about not meeting them. scouts honor (i never actually was a girl scout, but i'll say it anyway)- i'm really not as apathetic as i sound.

this is me. i'm a mess.